There was a weird spark. But if he fucks you over? Enough to make you remember how to tell a man, one who has never shared your bed, that you want him. You have sometimes glanced at him, half-naked at the beach or at the pool, and wondered how those muscles would feel, but you have never in these past years indicated any desire to him. Emma, 20 I cheated on my now ex boyfriend of nearly four years with his best mate. They argued with each other and were well and truly jealous of the revenge we got. After months of me not so subtly pursuing him, we ended up having super drunk sex. It was the perfect arrangement, or so we thought. And you will not be able to understand why this break up hurts so much more than the last one. This is my ex boyfriends best friend and every time I go to see him, I know our mutual friends would all be disgusted with my choices. You know this boy to be kind and you know him to be good. I had been good friends with one of his best guy mates throughout our relationship, and when me and my boyfriend broke up, he was super nice and suddenly I realised how fit he actually was. You knew his body but not the most intimate parts. It ended when he went travelling but I know we both had feelings for each other still. Last month, I found myself getting closer to my friend and my ex boyfriend's best friend, beginning with me talking about how I need to move on from our relationship. Now you find that empty sex works just as well and fills the silence of your apartment. Gabby, 19 I was sleeping with this guy named Rowan and one morning I woke up in his bed, feeling annoyed about an argument we had the night before.